Sunday February 26, 2017 @ 2:33 pm
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I love when I am organizing icons and I find an icon that I made a long time ago and I just become deeply enamored of it-- I mean more so then I was at the time of making it-- just goes to show you how something you might overlook tomorrow might be something you really just sort of dig today!
Sunday February 26, 2017 @ 10:50 am
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Ever since digging out some of my icons-- seriously-- I stuck them all in one folder. I decided to just create folders and seperate them into series, a somewhat eh problem but as I'm doing it, I am pretty much going "I can't believe that I created them"-- you get to see levels of a beginner iconist and some of it's pretty horrific. I guess though that it's proof that I've grown artistic wise-- some though are really good and I have a hard time how I got to that level-- then it's surrounded in a sea of 'well I'm trying!"

Also there were alot of original RP icons-- which I've stuck in my personal folder, because I'm likely never going to RP them again and I've made my peace with that-- I just need to write about them is all.

I also love how easy it is to trigger Mystic Artes in Tales of Beseria-- in fact I think that game has my favorite battle system in general-- I don't feel like I'm trolling around in mush and the equipment teaches you skills mastery point is fun and reminds me of Tales of Vesperia-- except in this Tales game it wasn't just the main two-- ALL EQUIP-ABLE ITEMS CAN TEACH YOU NEW THINGS. The only bad part is the Grade slog makes me want to cry-- so I have to continually chain two enemies together in hopes of a Dire foe so that I can earn tons of grade for mastery. It's a vicious circle (but hey no worries-- I love to overlevel so it's all good!)

alright, back to everything and everything!~ Have a wonderful sunday and I'll be around to read journals in between my mad leveling skillz.
Saturday February 25, 2017 @ 4:49 pm
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I have seen a few people post a masterlist about their pairings but I am going to leave the floor open and give me a series and I will tell you the pairings I like and why I like them.

Consider it a pairing freetalk.
Thursday February 23, 2017 @ 8:23 am
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Day 4 of the hostage situation is nigh-- hopefully we are able to negotiate in order to get the heck out of dodge and enjoy our weekend. This means of course that I have to put up with my co-workers for ONE MORE DAY. We'll see how that goes-- luckily Owen is my saving grace-- just a shared look with him and I know that he is commiserating with me. I am not saying that we are alike; in fact our personalities are vastly different BUT I think that we both have the same pet peeves when it comes to work.

No plans except tonight I will be playing some Tales of Beseria, watching a little bit of Yuri on Ice and getting some damn good sleep! I've been feeling so much better-- pretty legit in fact. Perhaps the fact that I know that what I've been feeling has been anxiety and so now I can take definite steps to try to alleviate it (I was wondering why I was suddenly suffering indigestion-- now I know-- it's because I've been a little anxious bucket of worry)

No fucks have been given at work-- not by me at least.

In a little less then two weeks I will be in Colorado visiting with my friends-- Owen and I are going on a mini vacation-- we'll be there for half a week but I think that it'll be fun, and hey-- PLANE RIDE!
Wednesday February 22, 2017 @ 10:58 pm
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I have a new Main on FFXIV (due to the whole Fantasia and Rename potions-- there goes any expendable cash I had) and I have a selection of pictures of which I need help deciding which one I am going to turn into an icon! So this is where you guys come in... I need input!

WHICH ONE DO YOU GUYS LIKE BEST! (It's of my character, Shylia)





(yes, she's OG in her Setzer coat, dollah dollah!)
Tuesday February 21, 2017 @ 10:28 pm
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Well, there's nothing much to post because everything was calm for the most part.

I got my emergency room bill and surprisingly it wasn't as much as I thought it was going to be, so hurrah for that. I just have to go to Financial Services and set up a payment plan, but hey-- I guess that's one less thing to worry about.

Also a note about any icons I post-- if anyone is interested in using any of them-- feel free to! The ones that have no credit keywords are ones that I've made and really, credit is not required in the slightest! I used to be like "CREDIT ME OR ELSE" but hey, I'm just chill and I really just icon for fun here and there-- (and to see if I still have a knack for it). (But please don't take the Alaiyna one-- as she's a character that I used to play on FFXIV, there'd be no real point for anyone to use it except for me)

Hope y'all are doing great! I am about ready to play a little bit of Tales of Beseria and make some fries!
Monday February 20, 2017 @ 11:00 pm
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Well luckily I have some sleepytime tea that I'm nursing so perhaps I've let go of my rage just a little bit.

I work with a few very difficult people and normally I have my boyfriend to act as my support. At work we are seriously an army of two-- we form a united front and if one pisses one of us off, we take up arms for the other. But well there are a few people that not even my boyfriend can quell-- among them Michael Stalcup (for all of you people who were around 3 years ago-- you will remember that name, it's synonymous with DOUCHEBAG.) and then there is Mariah.

To describe Mariah would be-- imagine if Dolores Umbridge (of Harry Potter fame) was a REAL LIVE PERSON.

When I first met her, I thought she was the sweetest little old lady and then my boyfriend (who wasn't my boyfriend at the time) told me that she'd probably try to carve lines into my hand if she could get away with it. I was sceptical-- until she showed her true colours-- it was over something stupid but she was being viciously mean and petty over it. There was a year where she wasn't actually that bad, but here lately she's been extra 'throw me in the sea and watch me float' salty.

We have this big trash receptacle in the middle of our picking area, we also have another one that is out in po-dunk ICS. When Fresenius has to get all the cording and stuff off the product, we take it to the nearest trash container. It makes sense, right? We aren't totally flakes, we do take out our own trash because well that's the decent thing to do. Well last week Owen threw some of the Fresenius trash in the central area, and Mariah goes "Take out the trash to the OTHER area-- your trash container" (referring to po-dunk). Owen says he'll take out the trash, and you know that should be the end of it-- right? WRONG! It isn't-- she kicks up giant fuss.

No one in Fresenius is going to walk all the way out to podunk when there is a perfectly good trash bin closer where we can dump our stuff-- we have a lot to pick and we have a time limit for it-- so whatever. Last week passed-- no one died-- everything got done.

Today, Fresenius once again uses the trash bin and then around 9 pm, Mariah comes over to where Renae and Owen are still picking Fresenius and goes "You know I love you guys-- I love you a lot-- but you need to take your trash to the other bin." and then she walks off. (No, she doesn't love us-- I am totally not convinced of this fact, and neither is Renae and Owen, Oh especially not Owen since I can see it on his face)

I interject myself, saying that the distance to walk to the other bin is too far (we use these bins on tuesdays and thursdays when we are running the packing part of our operation, and yes, we empty it out as well). Then she makes it a point to come to me and start ARGUING with me about how it is the same distance (not). Then it ends with her going. "Well you can take your own trash generated out yourself" (because we NEVER take our trash out-- ever). Now, let me tell you-- that was the most mean spirited thing I've actually heard? Do you want to know why?

Well today, Mariah was in a pickle with her orders-- she was swamped, so myself and Cheryl took some of her orders and picked them. We didn't HAVE to do it, but we did because hey, a magical little concept called TEAMWORK. It is coming together to work together for the good of the team. Because of that statement, such a childish and petty statement, I may have said(yelled) the following:

"Okay, you take care of your stuff and we will take care of our stuff-- because that's what teamwork is all about, it is about worrying about yourself before anyone else. Don't expect me to help you get done with orders anymore, or manually ship your orders when you mess up or anything like that-- since you are so worried about yourself and don't want to help anyone else."

her response--

"Don't be like that!"

Seriously-- not taking out her garbage, not going to help her bag her product on friday, not going to help her do boxes. All of these things that she takes for granted that we help her do. So ungracious of her-- especially considering that she never takes out the communal trash bin anyways.

*Deep breaths*

Wow, that was long-- so sorry you guys.
Sunday February 19, 2017 @ 9:35 pm
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Tales of Beseria - Magilou | Eizen
Bleach - Ukitake (I need to claim him back, seriously)
Suikoden - Gremio | Tir | Odessa
Tales of Zestiria - Rose
FFIV - Better one of Rydia
One Tree Hill - Brooke or Brooke/Julian
WWE - Bayley
FFXII - Basch

Really, none of these are in any kind of order-- just a future wish list of icons that I really sort of want to make if ever I see a picture that inspires me!
Sunday February 19, 2017 @ 12:18 pm
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Hi everyone!

This weekend was nice and relaxing, especially since I got to spend it with Owen; the only disadvantage of the friday being that I had to wake up early for re-labeling (something that I volunteered for-- where I work at, there is absolutely no lack of overtime if you want it and there are more then a few times where I've clocked in a 55 hour work week.) There were a lot of people in for relabeling at the very beginning and then as it went throughout the day, they were dragged off to other places-- leaving me to deal with our work's annoying person(tm). It is such a total joy to hear her repeat stories, I swear-- great fun.

I got to Owen's place around 3:30 and then I cuddled with him a bit until we decided to go to the mall, I had thought to go to Trader Joes and World Market however by the time we had eaten at the food court in the mall, I wasn't feeling it. So Owen picked up cheesecake at the Cheesecake Factory (White chocolate raspberry cheesecake, yum) and then headed home to watch last weeks Raw and Smackdown. I was happy that Bayley won the title, but I inherently know it won't last since Charlotte Flair is the Pay Per View Queen and she just doesn't lose-- maybe I might be surprised but I sincerely doubt it.

Saturday we woke up and promptly ordered chinese food to nom on, and then after lunch, I met my Bestie for pedicures-- and her and I were talking about Yuri on Ice and then our pedicurist (well hers, since he was doing her nails) interjected with his favorite anime, and then we had a great conversation. (That massage chair was so good, that I dreamed that I was back in it last night). I had speed pedicurist but I did get extra time with my feet soaking in the warm water, so I can't complain too much. Now my toenails are a bright orange, and the shade is called 'pool party'. Seriously-- I could lead Santa's sleigh with this colour of polish.

Afterwards we went back to pick up Owen and head to Sapporo's for dinner with my bestie's mom and her friends (all of them delightfully gay--) and Owen and I found a realitor, so he's going to meet with us on friday and we're going to get the house hunting process started! I really can't wait-- I think that I'm ready to settle down, do the house thing and the kids thing and I want Owen by my side when I do all that.

Now I am home and sort of relaxing from yet another work morning-- I am playing Tales of Beseria and pondering going out to pick me some chamomile tea. And perhaps I may make an icon-- though I don't know. The icon muse is a fickle thing indeed.

Hope you all have a great sunday!
Thursday February 16, 2017 @ 11:12 pm
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No post tomorrow morning because I have overtime (willful-- no one is forcing me in; and all I am doing is re-labeling which is easy peasy). Hopefully I sleep better then yesterday and oh-- tomorrow Owen and I are going to the mall, and then to Trader Joes and World Market to pick up noms.

Short post is short-- whoohoo! Bathtime for me!
Thursday February 16, 2017 @ 9:40 am
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Here is for my daily post-- because I have to have my thought vomit before work.

Yesterday I picked ferring, which is pretty much the medicine for any time of vaginal ick that you can think of to have-- or rather it's OB/GYN stuff. And there were 10,000 units of this stuff so I came armed with my ipod in order to jam while I picked that stuff. I had thought that maybe I would think of some icon keywords, and I found this one picture of Yuri/Flynn from Tales of Vesperia were totally iconnable so I thought that maybe I would find song that would help the icon come to life.

But then somehow then I thought of pairings that it was likely I would never ever icon, Yuri/Flynn being one of them since it reminded me of an ex. There was a lot of emotional stuff there-- it's the same with Citan/Sigurd and Ukitake/Shunsui. Pairings that sort of remind me of her so I pretty much shy away from them. Don't get me wrong, I still like the pairings; but I like them safely and from a distance because there's still fallout there-- even after 4 years (wow, has it been that long? Now THAT is hard to believe)

It is also why I tend to ship het for the most part-- though there are some m/m and f/f that I dig-- I just remember being gayed out on the RP front, so my mind wants different things, things that doesn't remind me of her. So while I am still fond of Yuri/Flynn and Yuri/Raven; I am a big proponent of Yuri/Estellise. Because my mind grasps for things that are considered to be safe. All old fandoms have that potential to make me wistful and nostalgic, and maybe even a little bittersweet. I remember all the pain, but then I also remember the good times. You can't really have one without memory of the other.

Today is my friday and it's rumored that we're getting pizza! I hope it's not Papa John's because that is what they feed us all the time-- I wonder if there's soylent hidden in it? (mad props if you actually know what Soylent is--)
Wednesday February 15, 2017 @ 9:24 am
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Because I have woken up at 7:30 both monday and tuesday-- my body decided to be hilarious and wake up naturally at 7:25-- two hours before my alarm was set to go off-- and it was nearly impossible to force myself back to sleep so I just opted for bathtub and book time (which is conceivably one of my favorite times.. because well-- BOOKS!).

Most people wonder how I can be such an extrovert but also a complete bibliophile-- and I can see where there lies the conundrum; because a lot of people think that the more introverted you are-- the more you like to read

BIG F'KING FALLACY!

My boyfriend is the most introverted introvert that has ever introverted and he only reads like two books a year (well last year he did a re-read of the Harry Potter books, and that was his sole reading project). I am an extrovert-- I like interacting with people and I like talking-- but I also really love reading and always carry a book with me. Sometimes that book doesn't get taken out or maybe I only read a paragraph-- but as a child, books were friends-- being that I hadn't come into my extroversion gracefully, it left me a bit awkward and eager to spout random things-- books were the friends who understood-- it was my imaginary book friends that I practiced conversations with, I went to pretend parties with-- because real kids were kinda mean and I was awkward socially.


I understand the power of possibility in the written form-- I know that there lies in such a small volume; entire worlds that have yet to be explored. When you think about it, it's an amazing scope of power-- and you don't have to go anywhere to do it-- there is no expensive flight fee-- you are there at the characters side, interacting with them as they go on their own little adventure. That is why I think I love books-- because of the infinite levels of possibility inherent in each one, and after reading a book-- you are never the same. Something in that book has imprinted itself on you, like rings on a tree to denote their growth.

--on a completely unrelated note--

I think that Panera sounds mighty tasty for lunch. I will probably pick up a bread bowl. And maybe I will pick up Owen a bowl of turkey chili too-- and surprise him with it. Oh gosh, he would probably love me forever if I did that!
Tuesday February 14, 2017 @ 11:05 pm
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Holy shit!

Yuri! on Ice! is amazing.. I have no words for it-- I am on the 4th episode and already I am completely loving it. Thank y'all for the recommendations! (definitely much better then Free! *which I had problems getting into*)
Tuesday February 14, 2017 @ 7:53 am
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Normally I am not up this early--- I usually am good with waking up at 9 for my work, but our new Supervisor asked us nicely to come in, and considering that he didn't yell at us all day (like our old supervisor), I was inclined to reward him for excellent behavior. The line that I am stuck on is the Fresenius line and it is extremely high priority as we ship it out to people for their dialysis treatment-- so we have to pack it out and send it down the line to be shipped, and seriously the early start that you get on the product, the better (We spend our mondays and wednesdays picking it and our tuesdays and thursdays shipping it)

I slept fairly well but I think that was because NO FACEBOOK! none-- I have no idea what Cheeto is doing and I don't really want to know the rumors of what he is doing. If he is doing something, it will appear on TV at work (likely Fox News since that is what it's always turned to *ugh*). What I did do before bed was watch episode 1 of Yuri!! on Ice!, which I really really liked.

So it's likely that I will watch an episode of that before bed tonight (either that or clock a few hours on Beseria-- those characters won't learn master skills on their equipment by themselves)

I did wake up this morning and got a text from the boyfriend saying "I called you..." to which my phone died at work (must of been all that yelping that I did-- with no facebook, there is always cruising Yelp, looking at all the delicious pictures of food, and composing my foodie 'dream-eat' list. It may of been him calling me to wish me a Happy Valentines Day, but seriously it's hard for me to keep track of my phone and with no facebook til friday, it may make it a bit harder for me to keep track of my phone.

Maybe I will go to Sonics this morning for brekkie; I love their toasters and I could do with a morning cherry coke.
Monday February 13, 2017 @ 7:51 am
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Monday strikes-- day 1 of the No facebook until Friday in order to get my 'fucked up world-based anxiety' under control.

Slept pretty well-- still had a hard time getting asleep, but deep breathing helped-- I had dreams that woke me up though and was like "Damn it, why can't I fall back asleep", oh yeah-- and my cat stood on my bed and meowed at me at 6 am.

Had this dream that I was at work and they changed the picking system. I couldn't concentrate because actually they changed everything. I go into the breakroom and my boyfriend isn't there so I go grab a coke (but out pops two ice teas) and then I go out to his car where I figure he is (since in real, non-dream life-- we sit at this table with a moron, a complete and utter moron whom we can't stand, I am sure he'd be begging to sit out in his car ever so oftime)

We drive off and find ourselves late back to break.

Then I come back and I try to write down my new password. This annoying girl at work who doesn't do any work but proclaims herself the hardest worker in the building.. she demands that since everyone is standing around, her desk needs to be cleaned. In the dream, I tell her to clean her own damn desk since I'm busy-- then she screeches that she will and walks off.

I don't like dreaming that I'm back at work, on a sunday night-- it makes my weekend feel DOUBLY short when I wake up since really my psyche WAS at whatever Brain trucked up as it's representation of work.

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